Wednesday, 10 April 2013

Dear Elijah

Dear Elijah,

I'm really struggling now... I've been away from you for 3 nights and it feels like so much longer.

I'm loving our video chats and the photos + video mum is sending me throughout the day. I need it, but it does make me cry sometimes.

Tonight when we FaceTimed, you ate your dinner (steak and veg followed by apple and pear that I cooked for you before I left- you love it!) and Mum showed me how much you like it when she bops you on the head with your soft ball hahaha. You laugh much harder when she says "BING!" at the same time (no idea why?)

Mum told me some news too... You made your first attempt at walking today. You didn't take a proper step, but you did want to and I feel so sure you're going to really get focused on trying soon... I'm so so sad to think it will be while I'm away. I know it's 'for the best' and I know that me working at the bank opens up so many opportunities for our family but I've had moments where I've seriously considered coming home - this is HARD!

Please don't take any steps while I'm away, I don't want to miss it. I'm very proud of you for being a big strong motivated boy but there's plenty of time for walking when I'm there.

Goodnight my Elijah, I miss you xo

Monday, 8 April 2013

Dear Elijah

Dear Elijah,

I'm about to go to sleep for the second night in a row without you... I miss you so so much... I know you're sound asleep in your cot, at home with mum, and I know I'm only away for a few days (training for my new job) and I'll be home soon, but I miss you.

I miss your snuggles, I miss your scent, I miss your giggle, I miss your soft cheeks, I miss your toothy smile, I miss your beautiful blue eyes, I miss holding your little hands, I miss having to chase you around the house while you stand up on every piece of furniture we have, I miss watching you and mum play together in the floor and I miss family snuggles.

I don't think you even mind that I'm not there but I wanted you to know that my chest is aching from missing you, my Elijah.

I know I'm being a little dramatic and I know I'm away for a good reason but I hate it!

Goodnight, sweet boy. Sweet dreams x

Love Mummy x